An apology

Two words are flying through my head at orbital speed at the moment…

EPIC FAIL!

This is a failure of the highest esteem. Not completely on par with the Kalgoorlie thing (that ended a career). I failed. Simple.

I’ll tell the full story tomorrow, but I jumped at decision way too soon and caused myself a bunch unwanted, un-needed stress, was almost homeless and found myself unemployed with a no prospect of decent work for god knows how long.

For the people who told me “stand and fight”…i have two words for you…..PYRRHIC VICTORY!

For those wondering what pyrrhic victory is…i refer you to this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pyrrhic_victory

Why would would this be a pyrrhic victory…simple. This is a fight not worth the struggle. It’s also a good escape plan to right leave now. When I still have money in the bank and the good sense to think straight.

As the wikipedia thing says…”A pyrrhic victory is a victory with devastating cost to the victor”

Too much effort and pain and loss for a shitty result = me flying home going back to my old job and life with new sense of resolve about that life and thinking…”I have it pretty good at home”.

So I apologize to those I hurt but fucking off to Melbourne. I feel ashamed of my failure and will feel this loss for sometime to come.

You can send your hate mail, fake sympathy and “told you so’s” to me when I get home.

Yours humbly

Gav